Thought I would give a little update. My Uncle has passed away today. They took off life support and about an hour later he passed away. I soon as i come down and stop crying i am going to go be with my dad.
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Hurting
“Perhaps they are not stars, but rather openings in heaven where the love of our lost ones pours through and shines down upon us to let us know they are happy.”
Eskimo Proverb quotes
Eskimo Proverb quotesWhat a sucky week i have had. I lost my lizard on Friday. He got really sick. Cody helped me bury him at my Aunt Melissa's house. I have had him for almost 3 years. He was three years old. Should have live a lot longer. Now for the really sad part.
My Uncle JJ passed away from cancer back in June. My Uncle JJ (i had two Uncle Jays so this one was Uncle JJ) for those of you who didnt know, was my moms sisters, Jen, ex husbands and my cousin Nathan's dad. My Uncle Roger found out he had lung cancer back in July. My Uncle Roger is my dad's brother. So no relation to each other. On or around January 8th my Uncle Roger had major lung surgery to remove the cancer, from both lungs. During the surgery he had a major stroke, one that would have killed him if he wasnt in the hospital. So he could move any part of this left side. The week his one lung clasped but they fixed it. He had some movement on his left side for a short period of time then went back to his coma like stage. They had called for a family meeting on Saturday. I got work to let me have off so i could see him. My sister could not. After the meeting with the doctor; my dad, my uncle jay, my aunt joan have told the doctors that my Uncle Roger would not want to be kept a live by machines. So today some time they are taking him off the machines and making him as comfortable as they can until he passes. They say he it could be a matter of mins, hours or days. My dad and Uncle Jay took it really hard, my Aunt Joan took it hard but stayed strong.
I am so upset and depressed. This sucks two Uncles in a matter of six months. It is not fair. Some one said everything happens for a reason. But what reason could be given for this. I dont smoke or do drugs or shop lift. I may drink once in a while, and swear. I am fighting with codys retard parents which is not my fault they brought it on themselves. I am a good person.
I wish they could find a cure for cancer. Wish they could have years ago. I cant donate money but i can donate my hair. I have donated my hair once for the Locks for Love. I am going to grow my hair again and donate. If i wasnt afraid to donate bone (something), i would but it hurts a lot from what i hear and i wouldnt be able to handle that.
I have decided when Cody and I get married, I want a table set up that has pictures of every loved one that we both have lost over the years. My great grandmother Long and Schlottman, my Nanny (dads mom), my Uncle Bouch (sorry if i spelled names wrong cant spell very good), my Uncle JJ, (if he doesnt pull through) Uncle Roger and anyone else. Then for Cody his grandmother and grandfather on his mothers side, is grandmother on his dad side, and anyone else i am missing. That way they can be their in spirit and in memory. When my Uncle passes away at least i know he will be with my nanny, and my uncle bouch.
My Uncle JJ passed away from cancer back in June. My Uncle JJ (i had two Uncle Jays so this one was Uncle JJ) for those of you who didnt know, was my moms sisters, Jen, ex husbands and my cousin Nathan's dad. My Uncle Roger found out he had lung cancer back in July. My Uncle Roger is my dad's brother. So no relation to each other. On or around January 8th my Uncle Roger had major lung surgery to remove the cancer, from both lungs. During the surgery he had a major stroke, one that would have killed him if he wasnt in the hospital. So he could move any part of this left side. The week his one lung clasped but they fixed it. He had some movement on his left side for a short period of time then went back to his coma like stage. They had called for a family meeting on Saturday. I got work to let me have off so i could see him. My sister could not. After the meeting with the doctor; my dad, my uncle jay, my aunt joan have told the doctors that my Uncle Roger would not want to be kept a live by machines. So today some time they are taking him off the machines and making him as comfortable as they can until he passes. They say he it could be a matter of mins, hours or days. My dad and Uncle Jay took it really hard, my Aunt Joan took it hard but stayed strong.
I am so upset and depressed. This sucks two Uncles in a matter of six months. It is not fair. Some one said everything happens for a reason. But what reason could be given for this. I dont smoke or do drugs or shop lift. I may drink once in a while, and swear. I am fighting with codys retard parents which is not my fault they brought it on themselves. I am a good person.
I wish they could find a cure for cancer. Wish they could have years ago. I cant donate money but i can donate my hair. I have donated my hair once for the Locks for Love. I am going to grow my hair again and donate. If i wasnt afraid to donate bone (something), i would but it hurts a lot from what i hear and i wouldnt be able to handle that.
I have decided when Cody and I get married, I want a table set up that has pictures of every loved one that we both have lost over the years. My great grandmother Long and Schlottman, my Nanny (dads mom), my Uncle Bouch (sorry if i spelled names wrong cant spell very good), my Uncle JJ, (if he doesnt pull through) Uncle Roger and anyone else. Then for Cody his grandmother and grandfather on his mothers side, is grandmother on his dad side, and anyone else i am missing. That way they can be their in spirit and in memory. When my Uncle passes away at least i know he will be with my nanny, and my uncle bouch.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
* You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, "I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along." . . . You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
Eleanor Roosevelt
Eleanor Roosevelt
Bad things happen to go people. My Uncle JJ passed away because of his cancer. My Uncle Roger has lung cancer. I haven't really mention it because it is sad. Lost one Uncle to it and turns around have another Uncle who has cancer. It really suck. My Uncle Roger went for surgery the other day. My parents went to see him in the hospital on Saturday. They have given him lots of medicine to keep him comfortable. So he really couldn't open his eyes and could not talk. His one lung clasped just a since Saturday. He moved his arm which a good sign but he isnt out of woods. Saturday the family is getting together and going to see him.
On another subject because i cant talk about anything bad right now. School is going to start back up soon. Which i can not wait because then it is closer to graduation. Cody will be going back to school maybe not until after he is 25 years old (that way he dont need those parents income and can try to get a state grant). He is going to be going back to college to become a mechanic. I am 100% supportive for this. I know his brother Jon and sister-in-law Ashley are too. My parents are for it as long as he sticks it out til the end. He loves to work on his car and work with his hands. I think this is the best thing for him. Mechanics will always be needed. There is a career in mechanics (unlike what some say). We are still working on getting out of debt. It is taking time and we wish it was easy enough that we would be out of debt over night but we know it takes time.
Since as long as Cody and I have been dating I have not really saw him read a book. He would only if he really had for school. He would read comics but not really any books. Lately Cody has been reading. It is wonderful because we can decide its bed time but yet we arent really tired and we lay in bed and read together. It is the koolest thing to do together. He has to have a book that he is really interested in for him to read. So maybe when we have extra money we are going to go to the book store and buy him some books that he would be interested in.
On another subject because i cant talk about anything bad right now. School is going to start back up soon. Which i can not wait because then it is closer to graduation. Cody will be going back to school maybe not until after he is 25 years old (that way he dont need those parents income and can try to get a state grant). He is going to be going back to college to become a mechanic. I am 100% supportive for this. I know his brother Jon and sister-in-law Ashley are too. My parents are for it as long as he sticks it out til the end. He loves to work on his car and work with his hands. I think this is the best thing for him. Mechanics will always be needed. There is a career in mechanics (unlike what some say). We are still working on getting out of debt. It is taking time and we wish it was easy enough that we would be out of debt over night but we know it takes time.
Since as long as Cody and I have been dating I have not really saw him read a book. He would only if he really had for school. He would read comics but not really any books. Lately Cody has been reading. It is wonderful because we can decide its bed time but yet we arent really tired and we lay in bed and read together. It is the koolest thing to do together. He has to have a book that he is really interested in for him to read. So maybe when we have extra money we are going to go to the book store and buy him some books that he would be interested in.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Christmas 2009 (I said i Would put a blog and picture up about it)
"To us, family means putting your arms around each other and being there."-- Barbara Bush
The family you come from isn't as important as the family you're going to have. -- Ring Lardner
Christmas is my favorite time of the year. The time that is spent with family is so wonderful. On Christmas Eve Cody and I along with my sister's boyfriend Steve all slept over at my parents house. My dad had told some of this friends that all his children will be at the house to spend the night even the one that arent really his kids. Which makes me and Cody feel pretty good. Cody and I slept on the air bed out in the living room. My sister wakes me up on Christmas morning by jumping on the bed yelling "Santa Came Santa Came". It scared me to death. Cody and I got some very nice gifts. We got new games to play. I got a sawing machine. My grandmother got us a new vacum cleaner since the one we had was a piece of junk and it broke. After opening gifts with my parents and sister and steve we all had breakfast. We then played a little bit of the Wii. Then Brandy and Steve had to leave to go visit some of this family until we all went to my Aunt Melissa's house. Then we all went to Melissa's house to more gift opening and Christmas dinner. We all had fun. I love spending time with people that truely care about us and want to spend time with us. Then on the Sunday after Christmas which was the 27th we headed to Jon and Ashley's house. THis time we didnt take Cody's car because it has been broken down for a month now. We had a wonderful time with Jon, Ashley and the boys. We loving getting closer to them. We headed home on Monday but before so we played the Wii with Jon and Ashley since they got one this year. It was a lot of fun. Ashley and I really got into the tennis and ended up hitting each other. But was a lot of fun. Here are just a few pictures of Christmas, I have more on my facebook.
Cody and MeI love him with all my heart.
My Aunt Melissa, Nathan, and my mommyNathan could not get enough gifts.
My sister and Steve
My Aunt Jen and Gene (her boyfriend)
Nathan getting Uncle Ron (my daddy) to open on of this gifts.
As a joke we got my dad cole for Christmas lol
The new handbag we got Brandy
Daddy and Mommy
Sasha (parents dog) got tennis balls for Christmas which are her favorite
My hubby
Dark picture of Jon and Cody playing the Wii
Jon thank god he shaved before we left.
Shawn wanted me to take a picture of him eating his breakfast
Jon and the boys eating breakfast
My Uncle Tim with a nerf gun. We were playing with a bunch of themIt was a lot of fun.
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